Have you ever been sick to your stomach over your sin? Has it ever made you want to throw up? Have you ever sat there when the Holy Spirit is moving and you'd just try to blow it off and act like it isn't that bad? When do you start to make decisions in your life about what you allow to take place in front of you and what you can't stand to let your eyes see? How unprotected do we leave our heart? How much do we let in? No wonder we struggle. No wonder we have so many problems and are so far away from what God is saying to us. How much gunk and slime does God have to weed his way through, before He even starts to work on our heart? How much have we done to get in the way of our relationship with Him? When is enough, enough? Why do we sacrifice the Heavenly Father for a new friend, or care so much about what you look like? Isn't He more important? Should it matter at all what people think? Why do we care so much about what this world thinks that one day will go up in flames?
We don't take it seriously do we? What sort of leader can you be when you leave yourself wide open to what the enemy is doing? Oh, sure we can turn our heads, but who is it that will take a stand for God? How small have we made the Creator? Seriously, do we revier Him at all? They used to have to wash their whole bodies before they could go into the Temple, and yet we let our minds and bodies be filled with such contamination that it is eating us alive from the inside out. We don't even know how sick we are. We are destroying our minds everyday with all the filth that covers our televisions, and media. Have you ever felt what its like to care more about the things of this world than you do the things of God? Why do we care? When will we do something about it? When will it become second nature the way a sport is or song? How filthy we are? Nothing good comes from us. And no it isn't funny. Its sick. We are destroying the one place the Holy Spirit lives. No wonder we have trouble hearing from the Spirit. No wonder we have trouble knowing what to do with our lives. No wonder we struggle from so many things. We are mentally overweight. We don't train, feed ourselves the right food, etc....It hurts tonight. Sometimes you think your ready for battle then you realize that you aren't even ready to pick up your armor. You aren't even ready to stand, let alone fight. We are so over confident in ourselves that we think were ready far in advance. How arogant. How dumb. When will I base my decisions on my Heavenly Father? When will I stop looking around for answers and finally do what is right? How narrow is this road? Does anyone ever really truly get it? Will I ever be able to stand and pick up my armor? How much more work must be done. We are no different than this world. What will it take? I sugguest prayer. Prayer for help, prayer for the ability to do what what we are called to do. Prayer that we get it. He said it would cost us our life, but how much of us even waste a breath on what is really worth while in this world? Will we ever take him at his word? We live in the world, but we are not of the world, remember. What we sacrifice just for a laugh.
But how angry you've been with us! We've sinned and kept at it so long! Is there any hope for us? Can we be saved? We're all sin-infected, sin-contaminated. Our best efforts are grease-stained rags. We dry up like autumn leaves—sin-dried, we're blown off by the wind. No one prays to you or makes the effort to reach out to you. Isaiah 64:5-7 (The Message)
JTH
