If I were to truly trust that God is fully in control, fully sovereign, fully capable of providing me with my needs. If I was to let him be God and quit trying to play God myself. If I was to believe that his ways, plans, workings, decisions, timing, and execution of it all is for my good, my joy, and his glory. If the created knew their place, if I trusted the one who holds my very breath in his hands, wouldn't I act different? Wouldn't I live different? Wouldn't I love different? Wouldn't I see my daily life different? With the loss of my job lately and the possibility to spend every day worrying, wondering, anxious, depressed, angry, sad, confused, frustrated, and hurt (which I have felt all of this) I miss out on all the grace that God has for me today. If my focus is not on how He comes through like He promises He will, if my focus is on the distant future, if my focus is on anything but God, I miss out on all the joys, passions, life, and grace that God has planned for me today. The wonderful taste of food from the meal I just ate. The roof over my head last night and the comfortable house I got to sleep in. The rejuvenating dinner we had with old neighbors. The 34th day of my daughters life. The car that was available to drive in. The check that cleared, the breath I took...... I walked through so much of my life not paying any attention to the grace that God had planned for me in the moment, in the day. My mind often goes to the future where worries and anxieties multiply. I pray that in my life in plenty or in want I will not get so far ahead of myself that I miss out on the gifts of today. My beautiful wife that sits across from me, my newborn daughter that is changing daily. God is not impressed with my plan on how it will work. He isn't looking for my input, or ability to carry the load. My fight isn't in making things work, or carrying out my plan. It's in trusting his plan and denying mine. My trust and faith in him brings him glory. Only he can be magnified this way, and I receive the joy from watching my heavenly father provide for his people.
JTH
